Since the last round of negative pregnancy tests, I've been doing pretty well. No ptsd so far. My life has been coming together in the most beautiful ways. I spent a week in Maui with friends and photographing Taylor and Mike's epic day. I spent a week in Nyc and the Hamptons again with friends and museums and photographing Stephanie and Ryan's wedding. I just kept filling up my cup. The last 10 days my nephew was in town. Heart explosion.
And now... I'm good most of the day but suddenly there is a shadow. A little sadness is sneaking in. I was listening to a podcast with Jenna Kucher and Melissa Ambrosini and Melissa said she is really good and calling things in. Calling in what she wants from the universe.
I used to be that girl.
Now I guess I'd have to say that I'm good in some areas - especially love. But somehow not good at calling in a kid. I'm not sure what's next but I hope it's me figuring it out because today I noticed it's hard to sit up straight. Today I need a break. I'm going to go walk in the sun and see if I can find my way back to being ok.
This picture is from Maryanne McGuire of me in Hydra, Greece. I choose it because I want to be that woman. The woman on the edge of the ocean - grateful for what she already has and not what she doesn't.