standing up straight

Since the last round of negative pregnancy tests, I've been doing pretty well.  No ptsd so far.  My life has been coming together in the most beautiful ways.  I spent a week in Maui with friends and photographing Taylor and Mike's epic day.  I spent a week in Nyc and the Hamptons again with friends and museums and photographing Stephanie and Ryan's wedding.  I just kept filling up my cup.  The last 10 days my nephew was in town.  Heart explosion.  

And now... I'm good most of the day but suddenly there is a shadow.  A little sadness is sneaking in.  I was listening to a podcast with Jenna Kucher and Melissa Ambrosini and Melissa said she is really good and calling things in.  Calling in what she wants from the universe.  

I used to be that girl.

Now I guess I'd have to say that I'm good in some areas - especially love.  But somehow not good at calling in a kid.  I'm not sure what's next but I hope it's me figuring it out because today I noticed it's hard to sit up straight.  Today I need a break.  I'm going to go walk in the sun and see if I can find my way back to being ok.

This picture is from Maryanne McGuire of me in Hydra, Greece.  I choose it because I want to be that woman.  The woman on the edge of the ocean - grateful for what she already has and not what she doesn't.

xoxo S