Myself again with you still by my side

I’m returning to myself every day. I’m in such a good place. It’s been a tough road to balance out my hormones and to feel so much like myself. I have so many beautiful and peaceful hopes and dreams floating around in my mind. It feels like an exhale or a quiet and serene hallelujah after being away from myself for some long.  I’m meditating and being in a space that’s filled with so much more gratitude than the imbalance was. I can’t help but think of how changed our lives have been in the last few weeks.  How many walks Mike and Jake Washington (our dog) and I have gone on. How taking care of this little guy gave us something else to talk about. Something new and beautiful.  I’m grateful for the 3 of us.  I’m grateful for all this experience has brought us.  It taught me to trust Mike Ofeldt in a way I would have never known.  I’m always still composing my vows to him in my head. Lately it comes out like this. 

Oh Mike Ofeldt after 10 years I’d still go back in time and fall in love with you again.  Loving you has been one of the best things I’ve ever done.  I’m crazy proud to be your wife and often feel like a genius for picking you.  Life has challenged us in so many ways and when I get knocked down you pick me up.  You are so patient with me- not with leaving my laundry everywhere and forgetting to wash the dishes but the big stuff - waiting for me to understand a situation and coming up with my own conclusion or knowing I’m a little lost but I’ll get there eventually.  

I’m rarely lost in life.  I usually have clarity and strength in my convictions and if we weren’t challenged in so Many ways lately I’d never know that you can be there for me in this way.  

You have so much strength more than I ever could have guessed.  With all the disappointment we have faced and all of these hormones making me feel so unlike myself - you’re still here, still trying.  I’m wildly grateful for you. Thanks for being my love. 

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